I arrived at home in a hurry after bar night to pick up my son and drive him to school, once in the house, nobody, no son no daughter... I search him... No result, after a while I get out and see my daughter on the back seat of the car... In fact, I wasn't just back from bar, I already came back home to drive my son to school but I didn't knew it, I was too wasted....
yes, that arouse me to tink about it. I have a real fantasy in danger
but each tilme somthing crazy happen I wabt to live it more and more and increase risks.
my fabtasy for now is leaving a bar totally plastered and have a ride with a stranger that makes me a fix of heroine during I drive fats with my children on board and no one with security belt
I lke surpises
so in place of orderong shots I order flags and bartender gives me one shot per color
past week, I had passed out on the bar when the bartender wakes me up
I was the last one, bar was closed, bartender had already clean all
but I didn't want to leave without a last drink
bartender told me if you want something, just a bottle of beer,n all is clean
I negociate and he agreed shot
so I asked double South africa
6 double shots...
I nearly passed out at new only by drink thelm
after I paid and left bar
I was totally smashed
not only staggering, totally needed walls to get out
sun was high ibn the sky
several people in street
it took me time to reach my car
I try to take some cocaine I was too wasted to focus my nose
so I drove like that to home
feeling passing out, waking up and put car on road at new
I was fucking hot, and wanted to get fucked again but I was unfortunatly to drunk to compose number on my phne
yes I often when I drive dead drunjk, so drunk that's it's nt possible for me to read textos
I often text
one of my fabtasy will be to be arrested by cops like that
trashed at my maximum, breast covered I hadn't be abl e to put in my nose, car full of empty bottles, cigarett lighted by the middl e inthe hand, my son on passanger seat that gives me pills, to just slur to the agent "I was out of booze to drive, I was just on the way buy some"
cheers
and if I already peed on mle it will be better
my son just git won to go to toilet I asked hi to bring me some toys
it's going to be a nice night
